nikita - seperti yang kau ingini

Bukan dengan barang fana
Kau membayar dosaku
Dengan darah yg maha
Tiada noda dan celah

Bukan dengan emas perak
Kau menebus diriku
Oleh segenap kasih
Dan pengorbananmu

Ku telah mati dan tinggalkan
Jalan hidupku yg lama
Semuanya sia-sisa
Dan tak berarti lagi

Hidup ini kuletakkan
Pada mesbahmu ya tuhan
Jadilah padaku seperti
Yg kau ingini

why?

hai laki! ingatkah saat kita awal bertemu? awal kita berkenalan? kita masih malu malu untuk saling mengenal. Namun? apa yang terjadi? beberapa hari telah berlalu kita menjadi sering sapa menyapa.

Kita menjadi seorang sahabat. Kita saling cerita tentang semua masalah, kita saling memberikan solusi. 
dan yang aku suka darimu, kamu selalu memarahi orang yang selalu membuat aku sakit hati. Kamu selalu memberi kan pundak untuk aku bersandar disaat aku menangis. Tapi.... Tahu tidak? semua perhatianmu membuat aku menyayangimu, bahkan mencintaimu, bahkan lebih sekedar dari sahabat.
kamu merasakannya bukan? 
dan akhirnya kita berdua menjadi kita. bukan, bukan kita sahabat, tapi kita adalah seorang kekasih :)
kamu menganggap aku satu-satunya, dan kita selalu berharap kita selalu bersama selamanya.
berjalan selama 1 bulan kita sangat dekat tambah dekat. hingga 1 bulan lebih, ada orang ketiga diantara kita?
siapa dia? kenapa kamu lebih memilih dia? dia baru saja kamu kenal? sedangkan kita? kita sudah saling kenal? aku tahu semua tentangmu, dan dia? dia tidak tahu apa apa tentangmu? 
tapi, mengapa kamu masih memilihnya?

disini, hubungan kita renggang, kamu pernah berjanji disaat kita usai, kita masih bisa bersahabatan, aku boleh meluapkan emosi, aku boleh memanggilmu untuk sekedar menceritakan masalahku.
dan lagi, tapi..
kamu ingkar janji. semua berubah. berubah.
apa dia yang menyuruhmu seperti ini? apa dia yang menyuruhmu untuk menjauhiku?

aku selalu kuat melihatmu bersamanya. 
kamu memperlakukan dia sama halnya kamu memperlakukan aku di kala kita menjadi sepasang kekasih.
kamu selalu menyempatkan untuknya.

tapi upayaku tahu diri.
aku bukan menjadi bagian hidupmu lagi~

 

hi! are you wondering who this is? Haha, i am your future wife. yes i am. i have heard your prayers, your cries and pleads, about this woman?
This woman from korea? who is she? Why does she make you cry? you love her right? but why? oh. are you still sad? Because of this woman? How dare she. but i know you still love her. and she does love you. i know, but you are not the only one she loves. darling, it's sad. how you cry for her and not for me?
but i know why you still have not met me. i'm sorry. sorry for not meeting you right now and protecting you from that woman. who caused you pain. don't worry. im coming for you. i will save you, no matter what. i will be the one to love you, honestly, faithfully, wholeheartedly. so wait for me. i will come for you, no matter what. i will save you, so for the mean time, wait for me. you're strong enough. that is why i love you. so wait for me. i will save you.

Love Story Lyrics

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say ''hello'', little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

''Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes''

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

''Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes''

''Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes''
Oh oh oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

''Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think"
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, ''marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress''
It's a love story baby just say... yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you.

Back To December Lyrics

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
A small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And when the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time